Not sure if any of you are still watching this space but here’s my room and my new friends!
I’m all packed or pretty much, there are a final few arrangements that need making. I’ve made a list.
I did my first food shop with Catherine this morning, it was quite fun. I’d already made a list and a weekly menu that I’ll be eating, it goes hand in hand with my gym programme. That in itself is something I’m really looking forward to, the gym!
We’re (Dad, Catherine and I) are planning on leaving around 9 o’clock. I have to arrive between 9 to 4.30 pm tomorrow collect my key and card and freshers week ticket and get organised. There are a few meetings this week (no lectures) that I MUST attend as there to do with my course. I’ve already filed out the form for the gym so all i’ve got to do is hand it in, pay and then I get my induction. Oh I also brought so new running shoes from Run&Become, I’m planning on doing a lot of sport while I’m at uni so they’ll be used well.
Would I rather be diving? yeah, but this is a mean to an ends. I’ve already begun to plan my movements after round the south pacific after university. 5 years of working my way round the South Pacific working all over! For now I’m just looking forward to the Red Sea at Easter. I’m planning on getting a job at uni and saving saving saving, its also my 21st this Christmas so with any luck I’ll get some money towards that. Keeping the dream alive! After those 5 years I’m planning on doing my commercial diving course and following that line of work.
I’m kind of looking forward to getting my teeth into this degree but yeah, hopefully it won’t be so taxing and if it is I hope its in a positive way!
And so it begins…I’ll give it a go and take it from there.
P.S It only felt like yesterday that I was getting on a plane to Fiji back in January - where the hell did all the time go!?
‘Should I stay or should I go’ the name of a song by the Clash and something I have been and keep asking myself each day.
If you don’t already know, I’m not a crowd pleaser, in the sense that I’ll make my mind up regardless of the ‘most popular’ option.
I’ve grown to hate [with a passion] manipulative pushy people. People that push your hand when descsions making.
There’s a part of me [percentage unknown] that having experienced what I have over the last 8 months that feels like I’m resigning myself to 3 years in a cage and I f*****g hate that idea. Once your in the cage you have to keep going until your times up and if you do break out then you’ve wasted the time you’ve spent in there.
There are probably a good number of you wondering ‘well, If he doesn’t do university what’s he going to do instead?’
Ask yourself this: is he or is he not a professional diver?
I’ve doubts about both sides and what will or would have happened. My number one fear [on his topic] is that plans for after university will be compromised [working my way round the south pacific] cause I get pushed into some other pile of shit.
Now, make absolutely no mistake I love my parents, however even the worlds best parents [which I have] are held to that oh so true Philip Larkin quote;
‘Parents, they fuck you up’
Please don’t think for one moment think that I some how blame my parents for this, my own in descion. As my dad said, only today
‘Anything you do now is going to feel like a come down, you’ve had a very intense 8 months’
I haven’t yet made a decision, ill probably end up rolling over and going to university and some point down the line wishing I was some place else. Isn’t that inevitable? Don’t we all get that? How many people end up doing something their passionate about? Ending up doing exactly what they want to do? I’d hazard a guess at not many. Again, that’s something dad and I spoke about today.
There is part of me that dose want to go to university. Again I’m not sure how big this part is.
I’m begining to think that it’s the ‘subject’. I’ve found something I’m passionate about and it overrides ‘American Studies’ and that’s caused me to doubt the whole thing rather than the subject. I’m still interested in American studies just not as much as I am in diving and the opportunities it’s offering me right now. I’m worried they’ll disappear and end up being forever discouraged from saying ‘f**k the system I’m outta here!’ that can not Happen, I won’t let it! [In advance, If your one of those people who dis-courages me from following dreams then go take a running jump!]
It pains me to say it but most of the time it’s closed eyed, small minded people, people who are to scared themselves and err on the side of caution and emulate this ‘careful’ attitude into you to stop you doing anything ‘to rash’, or to rash in their eyes.
Dream big or dear to fail…
Look what did these last 8 months, living truth!
So I am going to university how long I’ll last 3 days, months or years I don’t know but once I’m done I’m gone.
What I’m trying to communicate to you is that I’ve already made my choice. While I’m at Keele University I’m sure I’ll learn some life lessons, more abouy God and America.
If your a ‘prayer’ I’d value your support.
Oh, and you were more than right Aunty Caroline when you said It must be difficult communicating to everyone reading this on here how I feel. It’s like giving birth.
Italy is good fun, we’re off to Florence tomorrow can’t wait!!
After writing the last post I slept really well and and feel like i’ve lifted a weight from my shoulders.
I apologise for the rudeness but that’s how I was feeling at the time.
Having vented I’m thinking a lot more clearly and feeling a lot better about the situation at hand.
Anyway, more soon,
I’m a world away from where I was last time I wrote, there’s no white sand beach or beautiful blue sea out the from door. Instead there are rolling hills which rise up, dark green and covered with fruit and olive trees. I have arrived in Italy…
The house we’re saying in is beautiful has a pool and a great out door seating area. The temperature here is about 30 degrees or so, near what used to in Fiji. Im back with my family which feels great!
It’s rather odd being back as I’m sure you can imagine. From Fiji to Italy takes a long time. I’m glad to be here but at the same time slightly sad that I won’t be diving for a while, as you all no its under my skin! I miss it.
This is one reason I got the tattoo, I marks a new chapter the ‘start of something’ [name of a great song by the StoneGods - go listen]. I’m now a professional diver…a DiveMaster.
Its only a matter before I head off out on the next diving adventure. In the meantime I have Italy to explore and I’m really looking forward to it.
I arrived here yesterday afternoon still tired from traveling all this way. That said I don’t think there’s anywhere else I’d rather be.
University starts soon, for now I’m here and going to enjoy every minute of it…
Be all you can be and then a bit more…
God bless, see you all soon!